NovelBookChapter 447
Amy,
| haven't heard from you in a week. | hope you read my letter. | know it is stupid
forto think you will forgiveinstantly, but | hope you will givea minute to explain it to you. I've spent
this last week getting updates every day from Sterling. | don't know if | ever told you he is my cousin.
He toldyou have been stuck in your apartment. | can't help but worry about what you're going through. Has
your heat ended? Have you been looking for me? Have you called? | know the answer to the last one, it's not, but
| wish it was yes. | check my phone endlessly all day waiting for your message.
| even look for an email, anything to letknow what is going on.
| was too stupid to get Wendy's or Toya's number as | ran like a coward from your place. But your scent, goddess,
your scent, was drivingcrazy. It's wrong and still it was the most delicious scent | had ever smelled in my life.
| can't sleep without dreaming of you.
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I know you struggled with your heat, and | am so sorry. If we were a little less stupid, or had wolves a little less
stubborn, this would have never happened. | would have never fallen in love with you, or maybe you would be
smart enough not to like me. | don't know.
| don't know what to think or how to feel. What | do know is that | dream of you. Every day. | smell your skin in
the air, taste your lips against mine. And then | wake up and you're gone, a ghost.
You are haunting me, and | don't ever want you to stop.
Goddess, save me.
Rowan
| toss the letter down and wipe my face. It was only the second one and | can barely breathe. How am | supposed
to do this? Read them all? But then |
remember Megan's words and | grab the next letter. If he was brave enough to write them, | would read them.
Amy,
It's been two weeks since | left you. | thought you have been ignoring me, but Sterling just toldyou have
cout of your heat after a week. A week? That is almost unheard of for wolves. For lycans it is pretty standard
for a female in heat, but it lessons with their mate present.
What | wouldn't give to be your mate.
| think about it sometimes. It's stupid, | know. But | can't stop running it through my mind. What it would mean if
you were my goddess given mate? | think I've lived our lives together a thousand times by now.
| can't believe I'm admitting this to
you but | had this dream. | don't even know you can call it a dream. | think about it, dream about it even when
I'm awake. It has becmy newest obsession. | can barely make it through a meeting without our life unfolding
like a story in my mind.
My mind has rewritten our meeting. How when walked into the
classroom and | spotted you? Lof
ooo
Instead of my heart stopping for a minute and then | had to pretend to not be distracted. That my first thought
about you wasn't that you were the most beautiful woman | have ever seen. Instead, | walked into the classroom
and your scent hit my nose and | knew. You were meant to be mine. | kicked everyone else out of the room, and |
released my scent for you to recognizeas your other half.
We barely made it to our mating ceremony. | have pictured years with you. Our kids. So many kids.
But then someone speaks and I'm back here. In this place where | left you when you neededthe most and
now | can't see you. Can't touch you. Can't even hear your voice because it would ripopen.
Goddess, | am the worst kind of man there is. | have started to hate my wolf. His nis Erubus. | don't think |
ever told you about my wolf. | wanted to run with you, so you could meet him, but we never had any tto.
| hate that. | hate that | never got to meet your wolf. Why did we never run together?
I'm rambling at this point, but the truth of it is that this is all | have to hold on to. Your father has started in with
these new plans he wants to have a meeting about, and | have this pit in my stomach.
I wish | could cto your place and talk to you, but he's swornto stay away. He says it's better this way,
but for who? It's not me.
Rowan
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